I must confess, I am letting someone get to me. I am trying to let it go. I am trying not to be upset. So far I am doing a good job (I made a promise to myself not to shed a tear because of this person's actions, I am so proud of myself that this time I haven't let the waterworks loose), but it is still in the corner of my mind, lingering. It's putting a damper on my day to day activities. You know that feeling when something isn't right- even though everything should be fine and you can't put your finger on it? That is exactly how I feel right now. That is the way this person made me feel.
Yet, I know I didn't do anything wrong. The fact that I stood up for myself and did it in a mature, honest manner should put my mind at ease. I can only answer for myself and my actions and no one else. Unfortunately I am still thinking about it, and this person's actions are still affecting me. I just don't like it when people don't like me, and this person obviously doesn't like me, and chose to act out on it in a strange, passive-aggressive way.
Don't worry about me, I will get over it, I always do, eventually. It's just a very toxic relationship that I have to deal with, and I know from experience it just takes a couple of weeks to fade.
So please bear with me for this melodramatic post. Also bear with me if I have been distant lately, I have a lot on my mind right now. Sorry I am being so cryptic, I have to be though. If you are reading this- it's not you.
The good news is- I am still healthy, and the kids are getting better. Mr. Bee is another story. (Why didn't he go to the Doctor when I told him he should?) All that hand washing, orange juice and water are working, although I am spending a LOT of time in the potty (Momspeak for Bathroom).
The sickness in my house and anger in my mind should leave by next week. (A girl can hope, right?)
I totally understand how something like that could put a damper on things for you. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteSometimes cryptic is best. It's been my way for QUITE awhile now. :) Enjoy your health, and your family....as tedious as they may be right now. No matter how perfect we are (ha!), not everyone will love us. So be it. Until you feel better, maybe you should reach for some chocolate. Just sayin'.....
ReplyDeleteRelationships are hard, and sometimes some of them are better off being distant.
ReplyDeleteHUGS!!
I hope you feel better emotionally and your family feels better physically.
ReplyDeleteI totally understand what you are going through. Have to admit I have walked down that path a time or two and it isn't fun.
ReplyDeleteI hope it passes soon and I hope all your family gets better soon too!!!
Loser behavior must be catching like the flu this time of year because I too have been dealing with a jerk of a kind. I also have made a mature decision that works for me and am settled that what I have expressed was in the right. I hope you don't have to see this person often, as that can make things awkward for a long time. Maybe invite the lame-o to lunch and talk it out, you might find they have an issue they need to work out.
ReplyDeleteBecause of these issues, I had to take a leave of blogging for a little bit, just paranoid behavior that someone might read what I have to say that shouldn't. Now I am back and dedicated.
Are you having a baby? I saw the picture in the "You might also like" section....if so Congratulations! Hope its a mini JBee. =)
(((Hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI hate when something someone did is festering in my mind and I just can't let it go....
Oh..I hate stuff like this gets to you and bothers you. Toxic relationships stink. Be well and I hope you can work it out.
ReplyDeleteI am the same exact way. Sigh. Hope you're having a better day!
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